home from the hospital

I got home again from the hospital and what a night it was, I don't even like to think about what a miserable night it was, I spent the entire night praying, Lord Jesus if you will just help me be strong and healthy, and be able to keep up with the little yahoo's that I live with, I will be eternally grateful and I will do whatever you want me to do. I woke up this morning and I felt...... GOOD. Praise the Lord I felt good. I told everyone that I had the opportunity to tell "Praise the Lord, the Lord got me through all of this and I am just thankful to Him for that". You can laugh at me if you want but I sincerely mean it... no more abusing myself with anything that the Lord disapproves of, no more hurting myself to look a certain way, no more settling to respond or act to someone or a situation just to conform, no more. NO MORE! The Lord is who I am about now. I have too much to be grateful for and too many times He has pulled me out from the muck and the mire only to find me working my way right back into it. No more! I am going to do what He wants me to do and I don't care who likes it and what anyone thinks. Before one of my friends passed away earlier in the year she told me, "How did He do it? How did He hang on that cross for me... He is all I have now" He life was wrecked with constant pain and suffering, physical pain. She related to Jesus in that way and I thank Him for His Mercy in taking her home to be with Him... Now I relate to the fact that He came so that I may have life and have life more abundantly and I would be slapping the hand of God to not take advantage of the gift that He has given me and to stop wallowing in my own problems and daily despairs, but I should be thankful that I am well enough to pick up my husband's clothes and wash his dirty underwear and clean the bathtub and the toilet and do dishes and cook and serve themm as the Lord sees fit. This has been a wake up call for me and I hope that even just one other person can maybe get what I am saying and maybe they can stop and say, hey my life is not so bad, actually now that I think about it, it is pretty darned great because I am well, I am strong and I am a woman after God's own heart...

Blessings and Love.
Jules