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I woke up the other night/morning at 1 am and on my nightstand was an old tattered book that I had bought at a second hand store, Heaven by D.L. Moody. I have been reading it now for two nights and am nearly done with it. Wow what a great book it is! I recommend it to anyone, if you can find it that is. Also another book that has been a mainstay in my life, Hind's Feet On High Places by Hannah Hurnard. This book changed my life, I still equate certain trials and situations in my life to Much Afraid's adventures while pursuing the Good Shephard. What a wonderful lovely book. Today is the first day of October and we have been in Provo for a year now. That is something I never thought would come out of my mouth, uh fingertips. When we moved down here from Louisville it was so difficult on Jessi and on me. I missed my home that I had spent the last 5 years in, the same one we brought Jack home from the hospital to, the school that Jessi spent her entire elementary education in, the place where we have grown our business from one small wedding into what I never thought it would be, and where we had made home. I still miss it and long for it, some days are better than others, but I know that this is the plan that God intended from the very beginning. I keep diaries, very blood and guts diaries, I don't hold anything back. Upon reading some entries recently from when we first moved back about how I was just going to give it up and stop worrying and stop crying and give it to Jesus. I made a promise to let Him have His way, even though I knew He would with or without my consent, it's just that it would be a less painful ordeal for me and , as I have learned the hard way, it would not drag out as it would if I were to fight Him. So here we are a year later after the Lord has changed my heart in many areas and in some cases, turned me on my head. I am still surrendering to Jesus my Will and the fact that it does not matter where i am in this world, I will never be content with anything less than where He is. He has placed Eternity in my heart and that is my real home. Thanks D.L. Moody for reminding me of that, I needed it.